So now I'm 28 wks along and on Thursday I have a scan. Normally this is great, afterall it means I get to see my little girl again and can't wait to see her.
However, it also means that my nerves and stress out time has started. The reason for this scan is that they thought my placenta was lying a little too low and so want to check it's moved. I'm praying to god it has..else this means possible c-section my worst nightmare. Not only am I panicking about this but the fact that to myself I don't feel like I've got much bigger. Most people would think this a great thing but to me it worries me.
See 10 years ago,I felt so good about not being big with DS2 that I didn't realise I wasn't actually getting bigger and it turned out he'd stopped growing and was born by c-sect at 36 wks weighing a mere 3lb 14oz....so tiny it's hard to comprehend.
I had all these worries with my DD too but as she was growing and could see it I panicked less.
I'm hoping I'm getting myself in a tizz for nothing and everything is ok but you just can't help but worry. As Thursday draws closer I'm sure I'll be much worse but am going to try my best not to show it as I don't want to worry husband.
Lets hope the weekend is not too bad.
Saturday, 20 October 2012
Monday, 15 October 2012
Excited about winter..must be mad
When people are asked about their favourite season most would say without doubt summer. I like summer don't get me wrong infact if I'm honest I enjoy summer a lot more than I used to. Perhaps I'm more happy with myself than I used to be..for instance this summer I even wore a dress and more than once and not even to go out in..I mean during the day lol.
Yep, most people will answer summer but for me it has to be winter and no more so than this year. What makes this year so special..lots.
This perfect image may be reprimanded with the reality of me panicking about hubby making his way home in the 'perfect winter weathers' and him worrying about me incase I should slip and hurt myself or babylea.
Despite all the dangers and worries winter can bring there really is something magical about it. The fact that jumpers come out and you don't have to look at skimpy outfits anymore..or perhaps that's just because it means I won't look as huge once everyone else is wearing jumpers :)
The fact that this magical season is already starting and you can see it all around...from the changing and cropping of leaves to the pine cones in the woods. The sounds at night of the odd firework going off to the mornings where you can see spider webs glistening with frost. I've already started making arrangements with Katie to make up toffee apples and plan on getting sparklers....you just never too old for sparklers I think lol.
In fact the spiders web Katie saw on Saturday morning fascinated her so much she was stood looking at it for 10 minutes without budging.
With this season upon us just means to me that this year really has flown by and before we know it the most magical moment of all will be upon us and that will be the arrival of babylea.
Yep, most people will answer summer but for me it has to be winter and no more so than this year. What makes this year so special..lots.
- My gorgoeus hubby and me celebrate our first wedding anniversary.
- It will be the first winter in our new home
- Christmas!! I love xmas always have and always will
- Our baby will be here Dec/ Jan depending on how early or late she decides to be.
This perfect image may be reprimanded with the reality of me panicking about hubby making his way home in the 'perfect winter weathers' and him worrying about me incase I should slip and hurt myself or babylea.
Despite all the dangers and worries winter can bring there really is something magical about it. The fact that jumpers come out and you don't have to look at skimpy outfits anymore..or perhaps that's just because it means I won't look as huge once everyone else is wearing jumpers :)
The fact that this magical season is already starting and you can see it all around...from the changing and cropping of leaves to the pine cones in the woods. The sounds at night of the odd firework going off to the mornings where you can see spider webs glistening with frost. I've already started making arrangements with Katie to make up toffee apples and plan on getting sparklers....you just never too old for sparklers I think lol.
In fact the spiders web Katie saw on Saturday morning fascinated her so much she was stood looking at it for 10 minutes without budging.
With this season upon us just means to me that this year really has flown by and before we know it the most magical moment of all will be upon us and that will be the arrival of babylea.
Thursday, 4 October 2012
Oh my.. the chocoholic inside starts again
So I've noticed changes over the last few weeks. I don't mean just in my body , as it changes shape and size..I mean in eating habits and moods. I can't help feeling sorry for hubby as it seems he is the one most affected by these changes.
When you find out your expecting you wait for the cravings ..will they be weird ones? healthy ones? totally unhealthy ones? I am no exception to this. More so as I was convinced that I was having a girl from the start and after looking into old wives tales regarding how to find out your baby's gender, it appeared if you're carrying a girl you crave sweet things..sounds good to me.
So I was a little disappointed that instead of wanting chocolate til I burst, I was craving beef monster munch, cheese on toast and eggs of all sorts. This didn't change my mind about baby's gender and as always was right lol .
But the last few weeks I've had sudden urges for sweet things. Ranging from chocolate to puddings and yoghurt's. So far so good...for me that is. Not so good for my husband..you see he's a chocoholic which means I'm eating into his stash. I don't mean to and I do try to suppress these cravings after all as big as babylea is getting (or is that me?) I've not really put extra weight on (at least I think I haven't).
But it seems like I have no control on these cravings and the chocoholic (babylea?) inside takes over. Oh, I do try not to eat the chocolate and have tried to trick my cravings into submission by cheating. For instance, one trick is making hot chocolate to drink rather than tea just to take the edge off the craving. Sometimes this works..but only for a little while.
There was a tin of Quality streets in the house early this week...bad idea..I didn't eat all of them but most of them am afraid to say. I will try to refrain from buying these again otherwise at this rate I will be the size of a double decker bus and with just over 14 weeks to go I'd rather not be. These tins should be banned until much nearer to xmas ..after all it's just temptation..one I am unable to fight! But if the shop didn't stock them I wouldn't have brought them :P
Along with these cravings comes the embarressment of admitting that the whole box (a small one) of maltesers that were in the cupboard this morning was in actual fact devoured while watching Loose women and all by me (babylea too). While hubby is quite understanding, I get frustrated that I get so hungry and have these cravings I just cannot control regardless of my attempts to trick them.
So for now I guess I'm going to have to admit slight defeat and give in..just a little.
But not too much for the sake of my husband's chocolate stash and my sanity.
When you find out your expecting you wait for the cravings ..will they be weird ones? healthy ones? totally unhealthy ones? I am no exception to this. More so as I was convinced that I was having a girl from the start and after looking into old wives tales regarding how to find out your baby's gender, it appeared if you're carrying a girl you crave sweet things..sounds good to me.
So I was a little disappointed that instead of wanting chocolate til I burst, I was craving beef monster munch, cheese on toast and eggs of all sorts. This didn't change my mind about baby's gender and as always was right lol .
But the last few weeks I've had sudden urges for sweet things. Ranging from chocolate to puddings and yoghurt's. So far so good...for me that is. Not so good for my husband..you see he's a chocoholic which means I'm eating into his stash. I don't mean to and I do try to suppress these cravings after all as big as babylea is getting (or is that me?) I've not really put extra weight on (at least I think I haven't).
But it seems like I have no control on these cravings and the chocoholic (babylea?) inside takes over. Oh, I do try not to eat the chocolate and have tried to trick my cravings into submission by cheating. For instance, one trick is making hot chocolate to drink rather than tea just to take the edge off the craving. Sometimes this works..but only for a little while.
There was a tin of Quality streets in the house early this week...bad idea..I didn't eat all of them but most of them am afraid to say. I will try to refrain from buying these again otherwise at this rate I will be the size of a double decker bus and with just over 14 weeks to go I'd rather not be. These tins should be banned until much nearer to xmas ..after all it's just temptation..one I am unable to fight! But if the shop didn't stock them I wouldn't have brought them :P
Along with these cravings comes the embarressment of admitting that the whole box (a small one) of maltesers that were in the cupboard this morning was in actual fact devoured while watching Loose women and all by me (babylea too). While hubby is quite understanding, I get frustrated that I get so hungry and have these cravings I just cannot control regardless of my attempts to trick them.
So for now I guess I'm going to have to admit slight defeat and give in..just a little.
But not too much for the sake of my husband's chocolate stash and my sanity.
Tuesday, 2 October 2012
And so here comes October..
October already?! Just where has the year gone?? It only seems like yesterday since we moved in the new house or found out we were expecting babylea and yet month 10 is upon us already...cue the bombardment of xmas stuff on TV and in the high streets.
Last week, I had a nice meet up with an old school friend who's also pregnant..feels fab talking to someone else that wants to talk babies and gets excited as much as you. Was fun except she kept saying she feels old this time round.. I know how she feels but I try not to say it out loud...or it might be true.
After actually being able to drink mocha's while out ( some caffeine at last) I prepared myself for babylea to give me grief. Surprisingly she didn't..she went the other way and went quiet on me..in fact so much so I started to worry and got the doppler out to listen in on her inside antics. Thankfully, she was swishing away in there doing who knows what lol. She had been moving but as it was only small movements I kept convincing myself I hadn't felt her. However, she's now decided to let me know she's definitely there with avengence..give way to tummy ripples, heartburn, feet/hands under the ribs and general odd shapes.
Along with the start of October comes the school photos. I hated school photos when I was at school..those were the days before straighteners were invented ...if they had been my photos would have been very different.
This morning was a rush of making sure Katie had the right jumper on, as well as making sure not only was her hair right but it would actually stay reasonable until her photo was taken. Fingers crossed it worked..not holding my breath though.
So with rushing this morning we were running late only a little though for a change.Tomorrow brings 'reading club' which means we have to be at school early..should be fun to see how that goes.
Last week, I had a nice meet up with an old school friend who's also pregnant..feels fab talking to someone else that wants to talk babies and gets excited as much as you. Was fun except she kept saying she feels old this time round.. I know how she feels but I try not to say it out loud...or it might be true.
After actually being able to drink mocha's while out ( some caffeine at last) I prepared myself for babylea to give me grief. Surprisingly she didn't..she went the other way and went quiet on me..in fact so much so I started to worry and got the doppler out to listen in on her inside antics. Thankfully, she was swishing away in there doing who knows what lol. She had been moving but as it was only small movements I kept convincing myself I hadn't felt her. However, she's now decided to let me know she's definitely there with avengence..give way to tummy ripples, heartburn, feet/hands under the ribs and general odd shapes.
Along with the start of October comes the school photos. I hated school photos when I was at school..those were the days before straighteners were invented ...if they had been my photos would have been very different.
This morning was a rush of making sure Katie had the right jumper on, as well as making sure not only was her hair right but it would actually stay reasonable until her photo was taken. Fingers crossed it worked..not holding my breath though.
So with rushing this morning we were running late only a little though for a change.Tomorrow brings 'reading club' which means we have to be at school early..should be fun to see how that goes.
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