I was sure I'd updated my blog before now..until I came on here to check..oh dear. Apologies to anyone actually reading my posts.
So February it is already and Lily-Anne is 9 1/2 weeks old already..where did that go??
So just a quick catch up as I've obviously not updated since before xmas.
Madam was home for xmas which was a godsend and it felt so good to be sleep ridden and shattered within the confinements of my own home. The breastfeeding was going really well until she decided that at early o'clock she was much too tired and hungry to have to work for her food and so was not getting much milk and feeding more often. This led to me stressing out, being incredibly tired and my eczema starting to surface. This I feared would be the end of my breastfeeding phase..but determined to ride it out for as long as possible. Formula was brought for night feeds and give me some release from stressing..this actually helped calm down the eczema meaning I am still at 9 1/2 weeks breastfeeding...Go me :)
Baby brain exists I'm proof.. the amount of times I have gone to the car to find I've forgotten to lock it is unreal (good job only on drive). I've driven down the road only to question if I did actually lock the front door..and had to think long and hard before remebering yes I did.
Fitting back into normal clothes has been a nightmare too..mainly because I as a woman delude myself into thinking I can fit into those size16 jeans again..even though I've just had a baby.
This then results in me feeling so disheartened that in fact as much as I could hold my breathe and tummy in..it's just not possible to do it for a whole day and so I need to resign myself that a size 20/18 will have to do for now..as I need comfort. As disheartened as I got about this I have taken in that I am doing incredibly well to be almost back to my old self so quickly given xmas was spent scoffing choccies and sweets.
As for februray I'm sat here now and the snow is coming down..the 3rd lot at least this month, I am wondering as the school run gets nearer if Lily-anne's travel system wouldn't do better with a snow plough attachment. The last lot saw me slipping and sliding as though I may as well had ice skates on my feet instead of shoes. Regardless, I am sure that if the snow does stick there will be no doubt be a wave of photos of snow written valentine messages posted on facebook..moneysaving I guess not for me as I already ordered my cards for hubby...oh well. Happy valentines for tomorrow people. ♥
